Exciting Stuff

I finally found a purpose for my midget hands: fixing jammed staplers.

That and the power went out today. 

An Old Soul

This summer I've been very stressed about the future (fall accounting recruitment/getting a job, classes, work), and I've started to resent the stage that I am at in life. I don't like ambiguity. 

Yesterday after work, I took a walk-- my normal hill route. While on a particularly curvy part of the road, I decided that I wanted to cross the street. However, I realized it was dangerous to cross when a car could come around the corner at any time. I was a walking metaphor. I am about to enter a curvy part of my road, and I can't see what's around the corner. Hopefully not a car waiting to run me down. 

Lately I've been wishing I could take a magical nap and wake up in 10 years when everything's figured out. Basically I've been wishing I wasn't young anymore. 

Today at work, I was in the break room, and two women from my department came in. They were complaining about their sleeping problems, and their aches and pains, and one looked at me and said, "We're so jealous. We wish we were young again like you." It took me by surprise. They have everything figured out--jobs, husbands, families--and they'd rather be in my position. 

I need to stop stressing about the future and things outside my control and enjoy my youth because once it's gone, it's gone for good. One day I'll be the lady in the break room wishing I was the 21-year-old intern.

Late Night

I'm having trouble falling asleep, so I figured I'd blog about what was keeping me up...

It's weird to think that we are all living together at the same time, but that our lives don't necessarily affect others as much as we think they do. We all tend to think the universe revolves around ourselves, so how we feel is how everyone feels. Our highs and lows don't necessarily correlate with other peoples. One person is getting married, and at the same time, another is getting divorced. One gives birth, another mourns a loss. One gets their dream job, another gets laid off. 

It's just weird to think that this is all happening at once, but when we are on one end of it we tend to forget about those on the other side. 

I should go to bed. Work tomorrow. Fingers crossed for a dreamless sleep because last night I had a good dream, woke up, realized it wasn't real, and was sad. This happens a lot now

Yo July

I think July is having an identity crisis. Yes, January starts with the same letter, but that is ALL they have in common. Especially not weather patterns. 

Or so I thought...

July= cold and cloudy?

Let Me Explain!

One might THINK that I've been a lazy blogger and not posting often enough. 

Actually, I have been writing posts, but last minute decide they are not blog-worthy. 

It's because I've been very tired, and don't want to make any poor blogging decisions (or post something for the world that I later regret).

Here's a list of some of the things I've done (or haven't done) under the influence of sleep deprivation:

--cut my own hair

--watched a full day marathon of Real Housewives of New Jersey (Jersey shore but a few years older with kids)

--Unable to string together an intelligible sentence.

--And other things that I can't remember, because I'm tired....