The job hunt is starting to feel like labor-force prostitution. First I started with the big firms. No luck. Then some contacts my parents knew. Nope. Then I cold-emailed (similar to the cold call) a bunch of local firms I found on the internet. They don't need help. I'm not great with rejection to begin with, so it's hard. And weird. To WANT a job and not be able to get one. My final hope is an unpaid internship with the county controller's office--unpaid. As much as that pains me, I really do need the experience, and something to do with my time. As much as I fantasize about free time when I am super busy, I don't actually like it that much. I need somethingto do; something to look forward to.
So needless to say, this week has not been the best. No job, and a traumatic weekend coming up :(
I spoke to my sister Elysse on the phone today, and she said "one day you'll look back on this time in your life and laugh." I actually had a similar thought last night as I was gong to sleep, only minus the laughing part. When the present isn't going so well, I tend to shift my thinking toward the long term. I really helps. I don't know if I'll ever look back on this point in my life and laugh, but hopefully one day I'll look back to now as a measure of how far I've come.
Okay, enough of the Debbie Downer. Now for the good, There is something really amazing that happened in the last two days. Yesterday, right when I felt like the week couldn't get ANY worse, I got a facebook message from my friend Nicole saying that she was going to Hawaii for a conference next week, and her supervisor said she could bring a friend. I said yes right away, but was very cautious about not getting my hopes up. As it was, her co-worker was offered the spot and had the first right of refusal.
BUT, I got the thumbs up today, and now it's official:
I'M GOING TO HAWAII FROM JUNE 1-5!!!! Next Tuesday--so soon. Though I had to pay for air faire, my parents consented because, to quote my mother, "otherwise you'd be moping around the house crying all week." The sad part is, that's probably true. It will be so amazing to get away, even for five days. I'm sure I will be very sad, but being in paradise will at least provide some distraction from everything going on. The timing could not be better. It makes me think that there is someone out there looking out for me.
All in all, this week hasn't been the best, but I'm trying my best to keep my spirits up.
Goodnight!
